He Is Stillness

This past week I have come to realize to what extent the body can easily run around without being in pain. Whenever I'm stressed, I'll go on a walk. When I'm angry, I'll probably go on a walk. Whenever I'm happy, yet bored, you'll probably see me on a walk. Whenever I have built up energy that needs to be put to good use, I'll go on a run. Whenever I want to listen to music, I'll go on a run or walk. I don't consider myself obsessive, just really anxious if I stay in my house for too long. On top of that, I love being outdoors, and with it being nice out, it makes for plenty of opportunities. I'll read the Bible and notes on passages during some of those times in my life, too, or even just go on Facebook. I guess when you get down to it, the reason I go a walk or run is to clear my head or just zone out. This week has been physically impossible. Monday while I was running, my leg gave out and now it looks like I have a pulled or torn a quad muscle.Yikes!

First off, if you get a chance, please pray because I might have to see the doctor for this. It's one of those mild problems that turned into a big one over a course of two months. I kept putting it off because as some of you may know, it's kind of easy to when everyone else in your family is making doctor visits and you don't want to add to the bill. So it was kind of not so smart to continue on running on a bummed leg, you know, but I did. So what now? "What good could God use this for?" I'm starting find out. For the last few weeks, I have been struggling with my time usage. I feel like I have been hopping around (literally since Monday because of my leg, bahaha) from one place to the next, that I haven't sat still to just listen to God. I have noticed areas in my life that I am in extreme need to tear down and repair. Let me explain what I mean. I lack trusting in God for a few things in my life right now. I thought I could say with 100% certainty I trusted in him, but I'm a little scared to admit that anymore. Let me also tell you, I also have been struggling with lies that I thought I have conquered. It's like finally Satan has dropped an atomic bomb in my life. But you know what God did? He pulled my muscle so I would stay in one place. No more going on runs to relieve stress or cleaning to just stay busy. I have to sit still and listen to what He is telling me. And what he is telling me is what I need to hear.

Have you ever had that moment in your life where God had to break you to listen to him? Maybe you were sick and couldn't do anything or maybe you were alone and you had no one to talk to, but him. Or maybe it was just a time he had to put you in a spot where it was like you were face-to-face with him and he was telling you the straight up truth. I'm feeling that right now!

I think what is great about God is that continually he reminds us that he is forever with us. We're not alone in this dark world. He is the light and by dying to our sin nature, he is there to help guide and lead us on the right path to do what he asks of us. We just have to be obedient. Obedience, I'm beginning to learn, comes when we learn to love him, as much as he has loved us. It's even easy because I want to do the best I can for him, just like anyone I love.

If you are like me today.... please let me know!!!! Because I feel like I'm needing a little back up here or just a prayer will do. Thank you for reading all my posts and being so kind to tell me what you think of them. It really is encouraging no matter what circumstance I maybe in. Love you all! Peace out!

The LORD said, “Go out and stand on the mountain in the presence of the LORD, for the LORD is about to pass by.”

Then a great and powerful wind tore the mountains apart and shattered the rocks before the LORD, but the LORD was not in the wind. After the wind there was an earthquake, but the LORD was not in the earthquake. After the earthquake came a fire, but the LORD was not in the fire. And after the fire came a gentle whisper..."

~1 Kings 19:11-13

"Be still, and know I am God...." ~ Psalm 46:10