Today

Today was one of those days that I have felt the weight of some foolish choices I've made. In retrospect, they are small, but tedious things like that add up. I wrote yesterday about God holding our hand amongst circumstances. Even though I saw this, I didn't really believe it; or maybe it was more of not feeling it.

I got to work today to find rain clouds moving in, a cool front as well, with the wind picking up. For those of you who may not know, I have been working outside this past month in the garden center at the supermarket I work at. It keeps me busy, but today was the barest I have ever seen it. I only checked out two customers, and three others had either paid inside or didn't buy anything. So with all my free time, I kept busy doing maintenance work around the area. I was entrusted with a power drill (never used one before) to tear down and build back up areas that needed to be swept. For about seven hours that's all I did. I was alone for about four of them. I was left with two brooms, a shovel, a power drill, and silence to think things through. Lately I have been struggling with some decisions that have to made and tasks to complete. I feel like in this season in my life I have become less thankful and trusting of God's plan for my life. I catch myself worrying, and it's in that moment the God's spirit will usually remind me to "not be anxious for anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, present my requests to God." That's in Philippians 4:6-7. I need to be thankful for what I have now in my schedule. I'm not even sure where I'll be working in about a week or two because the department I was working in has so many people in it already, that it'll be hard to fit me back into the schedule. Anyway, right now I am counting my blessings and remembering there is a time for everything.

See when I was all by myself today I prayed and asked God questions that I have asked many many many times. I don't know why he hasn't answered my prayers yet, but I do know that in everything he will bring about something great. As for the things I am struggling with, I prayed about them, and it was in the silence of my workday that I was reminded of all that I had written about yesterday on my blog. That is God is holding my hand. His grip has only become tighter through the times I have been stubborn. I am thankful for his kindness and patience with me. Right now in a small group, we have been studying the components of love, and those are the two we have covered. It is comforting to know that God wouldn't expect us to possess these traits if he wasn't these traits.

So amongst the wind, rain, and 59 degree weather that I worked in today (in jeans, a hoodie, and rainboots), it was one of the most wonderful work days I have had in a while; maybe even the best. It was time between God and me in the most unlikely of places. See, I have said I have been pretty busy lately, and that is still true. Yet it seems like whenever I am overwhelmed with my schedule, God makes sure I have that cool down time with him. I am thankful for that too in him because with times like that, or interuptions, I think I would be more frazzled than I have been these past few weeks. God knows what I need, and he surely has supplied it today.