"Alright I Get It!"

Since making my choice to leave for school in the Fall, I have been tested.

Tested to the point of yo-yo-ing on the decision of whether or not to go.

Satan has been to his ways in my life, and after awhile, it's gets very very annoying. And recognizable too, that's it become much more easier for me to say no to the trap in store for me by him. That is, NOT to ignore the new adventure in life that God has in store for me.

For years, I have been wanting to get out of Champaign, the town I grew up in. Yet after high school, I just did the typical college student recession plan, and went to a community college. Nothing wrong with that, but looking back, I rather have gone to the bible school I am going to now straight after high school so that I wasn't wasting anytime. Needless to say, God has used the extra time I was in town to build some wonderful relationships, and for that I am grateful to have stayed a little longer.

Now to the new course in my life that I am stoked to see unfold!

Getting ready to leave home at anytime, no matter how far away you are going, it is always nerve wrecking. I have been feeling this way since about a month ago when it dawned on me I was leaving home soon. Getting closer to the day I leave, God has revealed to me through his word the journey he has for me. A mighty one, in fact. News that is brought to me none other by a few wonderful ladies in my life. As well as the revelation of where to place my focus on whenever I tend to worry or struggle with the future ahead.

First revelation:

  

"Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things."

The truth of this verse for me is to focus on the good that God has in store for me. I need not to be anxious about anything. I need to focus my attention on the good things he'll have me do, and then do them to see seeds I sow grow. And when I need to remind myself of how powerful and strong God is, I need to think of God as the psalmist did in Psalm 18:1-2.

Second Revelation

  "I love you, Lord, my strength.

  The Lord is my rock, my fortress and my deliverer;
    my God is my rock, in whom I take refuge,
    my shield and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold."

 

The Lord is my strength. The one who I stay close to in times I'm worry or am scared. I need to stay close to him to guide me through the uncertainty in life, and see what he will do with me as I let him lead.

Third Revelation

"Paul, an apostle —sent not from men nor by a man, but by Jesus Christ and God the Father, who raised him from the dead...I want you to know, brothers and sisters, that the gospel I preached is not of human origin. I did not receive it from any man, nor was I taught it; rather, I received it by revelation from Jesus Christ...I went to Syria and Cilicia. I was personally unknown to the churches of Judea that are in Christ.They only heard the report: 'The man who formerly persecuted us is now preaching the faith he once tried to destroy.' And they praised God because of me."

Paul was the worst of sinners. He was a contributor to the pool of Christian deaths during the time the church was being established. Under his "rule" in the Jewish community, many early Christians lost their lives. It took a revelation from Jesus Christ to wake him up to the truth of the gospel, and since that happened, Paul suddenly went from being the hunter to the hunted. The very people he persecuted he became. And he paid for being one ultimately with his life. Before that though, Paul was walked the Lord for years, telling others about his testimony, and sharing the good news about Jesus to others. He knew his new life of ministry was not appointed by the officials that he worked with to persecute the church; people before his Christian life who probably agreed with him all the way in persecuting the church and sticking to Jewish customs. It was in fact "Jesus Christ and God the Father"  who sent him as a preacher of God's word. No "human origin," but the direct command from God to go tell others about him is what made Paul move around the ancient world like crazy during his lifetime.

I don't know what the Lord has in store for me, but I do know this. 

My decision for the next step in my life is not based on human notion, but on the calling from Jesus Christ and God the Father. 

My parents have questioned me. People at church. Friends outside of church. A lot of people have questioned my decision on going into ministry, and it wasn't until recently I found that I couldn't make a democracy out of whether or not I should go to college. I just needed to go! And so I am, and I am 100% certain everyone will see the hand of God in my life. Because he has his control in my life. He has called me to go to school to learn more about his word to teach it to others.

I woke up to this morning with the latter revelation from a friend, and so the first words I said to God was, "Alright I get it!"

Now, I think I finally have gotten it.

I'm going on an adventure. I'm not going to regret it. And it's going to be everything that my heart has been yearning for all these years.

Praise God!